Its seems as though the earache i have been experiancing for these past 5 days is now making a hasty exit ,due to the fact i am drugged up on paracetmals and amoxicillin . thanki god for medicine because i honestly dont know if i could stand that horrible gnawing pain in my ear any longer it was agonising. it was only time before i ripped my ear open and performed some kind of surgery on it myself!.
so today i have spent my day sleeping eating and watching television.. ohh yes it was a very lazy sunday, but to be fair i have just gone on a long 30 min walk with my mum and the dogs.
during the walk i noticed that the crazy women that lives in the cul-de-sac just down my street has started a very cool trend of writing long notes on paper and sticking it to her windows how very strange! i want to go and look and have a little read of the litreture stuck to the windows but i'm quite very afraid of the fact she will ring the police so i think to be on the safe side i will save that for a rainy day. and avoid getting arrested by police as shes made false allegations of me stalking her or somthing strange like that .
just been looking at my sisters art project and wouldlove to know how she got all the good genes and i seem to have received some very faulty ones !! i dont know wheres shes got the talent from but its fantasic i'll post pictures and if anyones interested in buying somthing off her or wants some kind of picture painted or drawn for them i'm sure she will happily do it for you .
right so holiday in three days dont think ive ever been so excited !! crete her i come but although i want to come back with a tan it hink m y mother has a very much diffirent idea .. when i asked her the factor of the suncream she so kindly purchased for me she said 50 :o oh my i said well i aint coming back with no umpa lumpa looking tan then :( .
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purpleapricot- October 18th, 17:13
- EveryDayForaYear - Day 1 - new thing
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- purpleapricot
- October 18th, 10:04
creative
Right so to keep me ontop of things and to record everything that happens in my life i'm doing this new thing called every day for a year, its pretty much all it sounds i'm going to update everyday letting you know what went on thoughts feelings and just whatever ramble i want really hehe.
so i'm starting today i will post mostly in the evenings .. so starting today there will be a post of my day tonight :D
- holidayyy and car parking tickets!!
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- purpleapricot
- October 18th, 0:05
annoyed
woohoo going on a very much needed holiday on thursday :D too crete and i'm not coming back until i look like an orange umpa lumpa from charlie and the choc factory!!
came back to my car thurs night this week to find a rather attractive looking parking ticket stuck to my window with a lovley sum of money to pay !! i was not the least bit impressed i have to say it sucked!! at first i thought it was because the man that gives you the ticket in the morning had put the wrong date on it so he thought that i might have tried to get away with not paying at all.. then i read on and it was basically for obstructing anouther car!! i have to say i wasnt the least bit impressed!! so not on monday i shall be parking slap bang in the middle of his lovley pebbly car park..so i wont be making that silly mistake again!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrr
- twenteen!!
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- purpleapricot
- October 3rd, 23:37
sad
i absolutly HATE the fact i turn 20 in january .. iw ant to be a teenager forever , i sound as thought i'm being dramatic to many of you older than me and i know that essentially it isnt what you may deem as "old" but i feel it.
when your younger you have this perfect dream in your head of how your life will go. meet someone know them for a few years get married and have sprogs :D well at least thats how ive always pictured my ideal life .. but yowu never acctually stop and think what reality is acctually going to bring you, liek now i'm 19 .. but 20 in january doing a new course of nails .. i love every minet of it but when i was younger i was thinking i would want children at about 25-26 ish but now i want a career , not only that but i seem not to have any kind of guy on the scene so unless i'm planning to buy sperm and artificially inseminate myself it ain't happening any time soon!!.
i dont want rush and i dont know why now all of a sudden i seem to have gone into complete panic mode.. my heart knows it will sort itsefl out and things will happen as they should but my brain as per usual is on complete and utter overdrive and i'm almost sure its trying to ruin me!!.
right just a breif explanation as to whats been going on these past few months, i cam back from ireland as that completly didnt work otu due to unforseen circumdances me and my best friend struggled home we now have barley any money , and so went to college which has costa complete and utter bomb but we love it :D
and i can wait to become qualified and do a level three and start competeing !!!!!!.
right its quater to 12 and my bed seems to be calling very loudly too me ... so i think i shall be venturing off to bed.
thansk for reading if you do bother :D
and i guess i shall post when i can
xx
- Writer's Block: When I Was Young
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- purpleapricot
- June 23rd, 10:58
i miss not having to worry about anything.. and where your parents took care of your worrys so you didnt have too. i miss my family home . and little trips away together on holiday . they were the good times x
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- purpleapricot
- June 6th, 20:37
stressed
i'm really missing home at the moment .. i'm away from home for everyone that doesnt already know , and ive gone to live in ireland to do nannying i'm really loving it but at the same time reaaaaaally missing home lots and lots :( .
its hard and to be honest i think i under estimated just how hard this was going to be for me . i feel so lost and i dunno what to do to make anything better :(
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right the above was a restored draft thought id leave it in so you know where i stand with it all ;D
well basically i'm at home at the moment poorly :( its not good ive caught chicken pox off of the children that i work with in ireland and now i'm going to find it quite difficult flying back now!! mum rang up the airport to ask what there procedures are for chiken pox are and they said i need a docters certifcate saying i'm okay and that all my spots are dried up well thats going to be a while and i'm acctually ment to be flying back monday :o ive text my employer but as of yet ive not heard anything :( or got a text back i'm quite worried shes going to think i'm skiving from work and just want more time at home which is honestly far from the truth!!! :( i want to go back to work and whish that i had never come to england as ive done nothing but spend my time here in bed anyway!!! which sucks!! big time i really hope that she can see i speak nothing but pure honesty!!
sorry
xxx
- 1/3/09
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- purpleapricot
- March 1st, 20:32
contemplative
right now theres so much wondering around my head and nothings getting solved mainly to do with work its really really bothering me a heck of alot to the point i dont want to go back to work tommrow ... i need a huggge holiday , i feel so upset about everything just l8tly its really bringing me down i just dont know what to do and where i want my life to go .. struggling :( with just about everything and just want a little bit of good news :( xx
- I am currently ...
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- purpleapricot
- February 25th, 21:11
- pissed off
Really really anoyed with LJ grr .. ive been trying to veiw my journal for weeks and it wont let me .. it keeps freezing and only lets me veiw other peoples pages when it feels like it .. its really doing my head in at the moment, ive been i'll again latley and in trouble with work for falling to sleep while feeling ill, my manager suspects i have diabetes and wants me to viset the docters to get my blood sugar checked out ,whereas i'm not so keen on the idea , i'm sure people think i'm making stuff up because i'm ill so much but i can promise (pinky promise if you like) that when i say i'm poorly and dont go into work its because i genuinly and and not just because i went out the night before got incredibly hammered and didnt feel like doing an 8hour work day so decided i would ring up work and play ill, instead a day after being sick and shakey dizzy and achey i decide to trudge on and go into work pushing myself so hard to do all the tasks i really cant be bothered to do but still lifes a bitch... work is to at the moment i'm really not enjoying what they ar emaking me do .. they seem to have named me the "dinner lady" i'm like errrm no i really dont think so .. i'm just covering dinners not cleaning you shit up all of the time, i will share responsibilties yes no problemo , but making me the permenant dinner lady *cough* HA i really dont think so :S do you?
i feel physically drained at the momentand it is kind of worrying me to be honest because i have become gradually more and more thristy and more and more tierd to the point where it feels like i havnt slept much .. i hate it i really should get checked out just abit scared of what they will find i think at the back of my mind i really dont want them to find diabetes and have to have injections of take medication everyday of my life :S :( scared so so so scared.
anyways i best go
thanks
me
xx
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- purpleapricot
- February 20th, 0:12
frustrated
this for now has no subject what-so- ever because its going to be alot of shit ramble that no one wants to hear so i jst write it down :d its easier infact i think this is what this whole journal is haha i just like to pretend its not :D but never mind well first off i saw next doors six month old baby today :D i jst cooed and ahhhd over it and it made me think whens it my turn i want one :D hes absolutly adorable :D xx
i'm so so so sick of being single i really really am beginging to think theres somthing seriously wrong with me you know ? why does every possible guy tht theres a likliness of striking a relationship up with seem to jst run off and leave the face of the planet? there is something wrong with me and right nw i bet theres like thousands reading this and thinking awwwh bless shes being proper naive about all of this there really is somthing wrong with her.. well theres ither somthing seriously wrong with me or seriously somthing wrong with all the guys ive met tht i may be able to start off a potential relationship... people say just wait the right guys just round the corner but tht just pisses me right off because i know its a complete and utter pack of twatish lies and theres nobody that perfect in the world that wants me !!! for fuck sake i'm so sick of being single !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and theres absolutly nothing i can do about it.... fucking pisses me off what have i done thats so wrong hey??
gosh
i'm going to go before my whole head explodes with confusion tierdness anger bitterness and upset. :(
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- purpleapricot
- February 16th, 22:43
scared
That i might get in alot of trouble with work :( !! so very worried .
- Writer's Block: Heart to Heart
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- purpleapricot
- February 14th, 14:53
hate it when theres nobody to spend it with :( .
- new update ... alot to think about .. worry worry worry . (its all i eva do)
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- purpleapricot
- February 7th, 23:34
- rushed
Haha i cant acctually rememeber a post on here tht was slightly happy lol ... i just find it hard to post happy thing usually when i post things its to get somthing off of my chest because theres nobody else to rant and rave at so you guys have to be the brunt end of it haha :D .. well today not so much i jst came on to update really , i'm so tierd right now but i'm not going to sleep because everytime i seem to go to sleep even the slightest bit early my body seems to decide tht nopppe its way way to early and tht theres not a chance in this world its going to let me have a peacful sleep which kinda results in me sitting up in bed wide awake because i really no longer feel the slightest bit tierd any longer so i though haha i tonight i shall play my mind and body at its own game and jst tire it out haha pure and simple but it should work!!
today been nice weird not seeing my best friend because i usually see her everyday to do somthing but it was nice catching up with my family we went on a little walk not far from us in a park along the golfcourse and around the lake which was nice although my boots go soaked !! again as its been snowing quite heavy up here and snows still on the ground so all the snow soaked through my boots and gave me some very wet feet :( but was fun all the same!!
it was my birthday about a week ago yesterday , was really fun went into town dressed as a police officer with my best friend who had done a great job arranging it :D was great loved it feels weird being 19 well to be honest still feels like i'm 18 :S i think 20 is going to be the big age change weirdly i'm rather scared of becoming 20 years old just seems so scary like this is the last year i will ever be teenager and it all seems to be going so so fast and i really dont want it to before i know it i will be old a wrinkly and i dont want tht i dont think anybody does but i definatly dont!!
next door is expecting a baby boy anytime soon i cant imagine how exctied they must feel now :D i know i would be over the moon with excitment its jst scary to think tht in a few years time i might want to settle down and have children :S to scary feels like my lifes rushing by me and i'm not even noticing where its going :S .
anyways enough of me jibber jabber i shall leave u to it jst thought and update might be wuite nice seeing as its a rarity tht i ever right in here now days :D
xxxx
- pain :( x
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- purpleapricot
- November 5th, 2008
- aggravated
ooow it hurts my ear that is ive put up with bad earache for the last week and enough is enough i hate going to the docs and i think thats why its taken so so long for me to decide that i acctually might need to go to the docters to have my ear checked out and get some sort of medication for it , its driving me up the wall seriously i hate it !!
aww well we shall just see what tommrow brings thats one of the reasons i'm sat here at 12.30 in the morning because i just cant sleep. ohhh gosh i moan way way to much haha.
anyway ive been at work all day today and its really tiring me out!! :( i dont liek it i feel like an old women constantly wanting my bed and not being able to arise in the morning haha.... suppose its all part of a job but still i used to come in and be like wooooop wide awake bright eyed and bushy tailed now i'm just like YAWN i want my bed lol.
its getting abit to much !!
aww well never mind .. haha i alwyas say tht!!
anyways i think i'm going to attempt to sleep :D
i want to pain to goooo i hate it its really getting me down ive already cried loads with it .. gosh any normal person would have already been to the docs as soon as signs of earache started meee i ust liek to wait :S i'm such an abnormal person.
hoping to get a new hammie soon a syrian :D but doubt i will be aloud gossssh man i hate living under somebody elses rules all the time !!
anwyas chow for now people.x
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- purpleapricot
- November 1st, 2008
relieved
Why is it you always never think anything bad can ever happen to you ?, when it can blatantly happen to anybody in the whole entire world!.
yesterday my mum recieved a stressed out phone call from my cousin saying that her mum had been missing for 3 days without any contact :S i dont think i have felt tht kind of worry before.
i dread to think how my cousins must have been feeling through it!!
i was so scared of getting a phone call saying shes been found in a ditch somehwere. the police were called and luckily she was found :s
she rang today to aploligise and chat ... when things happen like tht u relize just how much you take things for granted in life!!!
so glad shes okay i think everyones relived!!!!
love you and glad ur ok if you ever read this
xxxx
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- purpleapricot
- October 26th, 2008
productive
Was jst one of thouse days that seemed to pass me by in such a rush .. i dont know where its gone to be honest, i was at work this morning and the next thing i new i was home, my sister had to go and see a heart specialist today as she has trouble with her heart.. went well and shes come back with yet anouther one of her heart moniters.
The paragraph above this was a restored draft so i'll tell you whats happened recently .
well ive been at work most of the time working away with the kiddies at nursery :D i love my job , i'm not meant to be working with the nursery children at least it wasnt in my job description when i applied for the job but its nice having a break from working with the older kids , i'm just filling in wehile staff are away or sick or whatever. but i'm hoping she will make it more of a permenant thing because i'm really enjoying it!!
on anouther not so nice note ive been poorly :( and to be honest i think its because all of a sudden ive started working with the smaller children :( i was sick twice at work on friday and a further 3 times back at home .. if its one thing i cannot stand its puking up!!!! why do you have to do it??? grrrr i hate it i'm getting better now and i think i will be going back to work i need the money to be honest .. as obv i need to buy lots of pressies for christmas next month and i'm hoping to go on holiday and have lots of nice nights out around christmas with my friends espec new years so i'll just have to see what happens. plus ive got to pay for my car this year :o ohhh no this isnt going to be good haha.anyways did i tell you about benji?? oh i got a lil hammi called benjiman if u did already know haha :D i''ll probs look back and see ive already told you but aww well.
i dont really think ive got much more to say :O shockingly apart from i've got to be at work at 8.00 tommrow its gunna killll meee am not used to gettin up and ready tht early!! i know tut tut tut i'm lazy ahhhhh so what hu cares !!
lv yas
xxx <3
- sore throat, car and much much more to tell you in this post :D
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- purpleapricot
- September 26th, 2008
sick
so its been a while as always, and thought it was about time i wrote in this again :D , so here goes. not feeling to good at the moment ive come down with somthing and have got a terrible sore throat to go alongside it :( its not good i can tell you that i feel absolutly awful feel sick headachy and shakey :(.
on a good note ive had some wiked times out in the summer holidays and still :D went to skeggy with a super duper close friend :D and had a wiked time went swimming in the sea was cold but verrry fun lol we saw a snake on the beach also that was a shocker and a seal :o woop :D although i remeber coming back at 4.00 in morning and i can tell you my parents were not at all best pleased and that spurred on a whole hog of arguments :( just because i didnt let them know where i was in away i can understand it they still see me as little but still i'm 18 i could be moved out and stuff then they wouldnt keep ringing me asking where i was :S *big sigh*
anyways things are all sorted as far as i know , this year i have planned to work but with all my old school friends going to university i WANT to go looks like fun and i wish id just gone to uni this year to be honest am still thinking derby but i still can't decide and to be honest the holiday sun aborad is enticing me to move abroad all the more its just money and finding a job and all the legal documents and of course all my lovley friends and family i dunno what i would do without them :S.
so a little confused in some areas of my life at the moment , but on a lighter note :D i got a new hammie called Benji :D hes a lil chinese hamster and hes like a grey/brown with a black line down the centre of his back hes adorable love himmmmm :D
oh oh and before i forget THE CAR all i can say is we have had to pay for a new fence and my cars abit damaged :o not good but not tht bothered anymore to be honest everyones okay so to be honest thts all tht matters could have been far far far more worse than it was and i can tell u i thought it was pretty bad :( but still never the less everythings ok .. and everyones okay so i'm just gald of that .
right now i'm off to bed to try and recover from this poorlyness tht i dont like at all :( :(
hope everyone is okay
j
xxxx
- its been a while hasnt it :D
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- purpleapricot
- July 29th, 2008
sore
yeahh should be the answer to that.
i love work and also am quite happy at the moment :) i have a fish tank in my room now haha this was such a spur of the moment thing :D i was like mum i'm going to get some fish are you coming or not ? and she was like i dnt want any fish and i was like good cause there not going to be yours :D lol so now ive like got this tank with 2 little male guppys :) i had four but two died :( and i dont even know why i have rang up the place i have bought them from and he just said the probably died from a bacteria infection :o i was like noooooo.!!!
so anyways am trying my best to keep them alice and sooo far so good.
right so my job I TOTALLY LOOOOVE IT TO PEICES !! but although i do need a fuller time job! but i suppose i shall start looking nearer to the time :D
but then agen i suppose i shouldnt stop being lazy and start looking NOW!!
life so far has been quite dull there not really been much GOOD excitement :( that is i'm meant to be going out on friday so i'm hoping tht will be okay am acctually feeling quite nervous about it all i hate it when i feel like this i wish i could just look forward to somthing for oncein my life instead of dreading everything cause thats what it feels like!!am so dramtic haha what would you all do without moi? :D
neways folks am gunna have 2 go its late and gotta be up early :( sowwi xxx
- my life lately.
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- purpleapricot
- June 25th, 2008
confused
Alots happened i guess bits i dont even want to remaber but its part of my life so i guess its only important i write it down .
starting off with driving first i passed driving about a month and a bit ago now, seems aggggggges ago now since there i got my little car a corsa life its not to bad its not that powerful but it gets me where i want to go which is all guuurd.
the next thing after that .. well the next main event anyway was my intervew to get onto a level three course in health and social care the course being 2 years is obviously seen as "tough" pah! okay it probably is but how i'm feeling about the women incharge of this program just makes me even more dtermind not to even attempt to try and get onto the next course. she basically said that my work wasnt up 2 level 3 standerd, okay fair enough but how do you even expect it to be level three when we have never even been taught to do level 3 work anyway!! how frustraighting. ive complained with a group of friends countless times and nothing EVER seems to be taken very seriously which just pisses me of all the more. stupied people!! grrrrrrr
aww welll on the bright side of life i went for a job interveiw on monday :D and got the job yaaay i'm an afterschool play worker woop woop :D so happy its part time but its not a bad job and i'm so happy ive got it :D. i couldnt beleive it, she said that she would contact me as soon as they know i was expecting it to be in a few weeks and saying no wsorry but you havnt gotton the ob but i had !! and i was over the moon ... they didnt seem to waste anytime in phoneing me up :D which is all good i guess yaaay ust extremley happy with the fact ive got a job :D
yaaay
you know what this means now
i'm a BIG girl now and i'm all grown up .
hehe
:D:D:D
anyways thats all for now
lurrvvvve ya all
xxxx
- PASSED!!! my driving test woop woop
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- purpleapricot
- May 16th, 2008
yes thats right i passed my driving test on tuesday the 13th of may :D yaaeeeeh and am getting my car tommorow which is saterday the 17th :D:D:D cant waiiiit am getting a vauxhall coursa life :D xxxxx yeah i'll give you a more detailed update sometime soon xxxxxx
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- purpleapricot
- May 8th, 2008
happy !!! never felt so happy and relxed as i do now its been anouther hottttt day and i'm sitting here with my fan on :) cause its hot in my room.
had a drivig lesson 2day good job aswell i feel such an awful driver... plus he got the date of my driving exam wrong :o ohhhh dear meeee tut tut tut mr m lol.
anyways i just came on here 2 point lesly tell u ............ tht ................ i'm ...................... HAPPY I AM HAPPY :) YIP YIP
